Monday 22 November 2010

can you help?


His face?



My eyes found hard to recognize at first


Although we’d spoken often.


It’d been a while since I caught his gaze


Felt like I’d been trying often


But, I got caught up


He looked solitary, in the distance


I thought maybe He spoke so I tried hard to listen


But the words were missin


He just gave that same old same old


Tip back ‘e the head


He wanted me to follow, but no words were said



We paced the darkest landscape as yet unknown to me


And then he stopped


And dropped


Down to the floor, moving much quicker than before he fell some distance


He threw his hands into the mixture


Mess, ash, dust and sand


And there he sat, for time


Yet time stood by


Perfectly – still



With an age he rose, tall as a skyscraper cutting the horizon in two


Then he reached down and opened his hands and whispered


“hold out ya hands, don’t back out now”



“I can’t there too small they can’t hold nothing at all, that’s all gonna fall....”



“Shhhhhhhhhh.....” his words echoed like scriptures, spoken not yet



“You have wot you need


You got it from me


And the cost I paid myself too


So please


Take these pieces from me


And help me put them back together.........”

Monday 15 November 2010

The training ground


Days, weeks months. We spent sitting, listening, praying. At times it was dull to be honest. At times it didn’t make sense, at times we were board. Wanting desperately to be out in the world making disciples but being seemingly ... waiting....learning.....

Dreams were shared, hearts were stirred. We desired, we hungered, and we yearned for the opportunities. My heart ,at times was desperate for those around.

Encouraged by the glimmers, those tinny glimpses’ of hope, of change, of Jesus.

For a couple of years I lived in the safety of community, reaching out from safety. I loved it, it was great, I found faith, I found friends, I found...... Home.

Then Jesus said”go.... leave your friends and family and go....”

“You say you wanna serve? You say you wanna help me? Ok follow me”...... Seems simple right?

Switch

I sit around a table, of lives so far for my understanding of life that it’s hard to see any amount of impact this little life could have. In my diary I have a list of 5 times the number in front of us again, all in that same desperate place.

So now what?

I sat and learned at the feet of the greatest of all teachers. It’s hard to remember all of it but slowly, it seems that it was time spent well.

After an initial introduction of overwhelming proportions. Now is the time. This is what you’ve been preparing for.

So give me those rhythms, book me into those prayer slots, refresh my understating of truth. Let me recall those war cries of prayer mission and justice, remind me of all those times I said “out there is where we need to be” Coz out here, it seems a lot harder than I thought it might, Yet, all things considered, although I have no idea wot I’m doing. For some reason, it still seems right.